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so I started the year out with 4 profiles and after today I will be down to only 2 :), this one and AlexandriasAwakening



I just cannot maintain all the profiles like I used to and I would get rid of my other one too but it holds a special place in my heart.



So DemonsAngel and GlimmerofSin rest in peace and let your new owners enjoy you

For those who know what this is for...thank you for everything :)



I am smiling more for the first time today then I have in a while.



I forgot how much I needed certain things and to worry about stuff for myself.

I've decided that life does not want me to be happy. I wish things could be different. I wish things would just fall into place so I wouldn't hurt in so many different ways.



I don't know maybe I should just give up on it all and say fuck it. Do I really matter anyways? Does anything we had together really matter?



I was happy for so long. Maybe you are right. Maybe things aren't where we want them to be. but we both are not making the effort. It isn't fair to either of us but then again I thought things like this took work. We knew that going into it.



I just want you to be happy. And if you are happy without me then be happy. It won't change how I feel about you. I want you to be happy and if it is with someone that isn't me then I will support you because you are my friend first and foremost and I think you deserve happiness in life.



Will i hurt? yes I will. but love is about letting people go when they don't want to be with you no matter how much you love them. I can't make you want to be with me nor do i want you to not be happy in life.

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GoddessMoon
18:12 Apr 20 2010

I know how you feel girl *hugs* send me a message anytime

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So I haven't been at much or at all in the last month...just been dealing with things at home...my dad is having surgery this week and so we have been getting the things we usually do towards the end of April beginning of May done since he won't be able to do much afterwards



Luckily they caught the cancer early so it shouldn't be to bad...



Good news? My bro is back in the states...he flew in this weekend and should be heading home in about 2 weeks after all their debriefing crap :D



So we have also been getting his stuff ready for him as well..



crazy